


Post #134 – Hidden Places – Victimhood
PTSD steals the soul – depression haunts me nightly. Insomnia – even though I take a sleeping pill I don’t sleep. It’s been going on for weeks. No will to write; nothing to smile about. Why do I allow people to rule my emotions? I suffer from a disease […]

Post #123 – Encouragement Quotes – Day Two

Post #117 – Transparency, Depression, and My Dilemma
To dip my foot into the ocean, drive a car, slip a shoe on and off, and to dance again. What joy that would be! Lately I have wrestled with fatigue and depression. My disease is progressing a bit faster. I fall asleep in the middle of eating, […]

Post #110 – Bullets, Muck, and Cotton Candy – A Poem
An imaginary gun Exploding PTSD ammunition Detonating emotional triggers Bullets fly Aimed at my heart Direct hits Catapulting me into foxholes of deep despair Darkness entombs me As the pit swallows My soul into a six-foot crater An impossible climb for a paralyzed woman Depression […]

Post #99 – Battling the Warzone of PTSD and Depression
It’s a never-ending daily assault. Sometimes I just shut down, hide under my covers, and play depressing songs for hours. And I never know when it is going to hit. I was fine when I woke up, now I have fallen into a pit that I cannot climb […]

Post #80 – Zeniths, Limbos, Utopias, and Crash Dives – Battling PTSD – Transparency
It bewilders me how mirth and melancholia could dwell simultaneously, yet in me they ensue. I am outgoing, upbeat, and busy which makes my bedridden state tolerable. Yet, depression hovers over, underneath, and within me. I cannot shake it. I wish I knew how to thwart it. My […]