PTSD steals the soul – depression haunts me nightly.
Insomnia – even though I take a sleeping pill
I don’t sleep. It’s been going on for weeks.
No will to write; nothing to smile about.
Why do I allow people to rule my emotions?
I suffer from a disease called acceptance
An innocent comment sets off a trigger
I shut down for hours, even days
Is there a cure for PTSD?
I don’t know.
But for a traumatized child suffering abuse throughout their lifetime
PTSD tucks itself away in corners
Words, images, sounds, smells, and memories
Bullets of a loaded gun.
Fifty-three years pass by; nightmares still invade my limited times of sleep.
Faith does not wash away all the pain.
It is simply believing in what we cannot see.
Nothing more.
My thorn in the flesh I will carry to my grave.
If you suffer from PTSD, baby yourself.
No blame, no guilt, no shame.
PTSD buries in the alcoves of our minds
A place in which we have no access.
So never be hard on yourself.
We must take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented. Elie Wiesel
Living life, bedridden, how I ended up this way and how I cope
Categories: Author, depression, Emotional Healing, Emotional Triggers, Encouragement, non-fiction, Prose, PTSD, Self-harm, Self-worth, Sleeplessness
Nancy Jean Walker - Loving Life Fully 
I am so sorry. So difficult and unfair.
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Thank you, Cindy, That it is. And so many are much worse off than me. Such a confusing world
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So much of what you write resonates – what is it about the night time? It’s light a switch that turns on in my brain. It is hard to think about the future optimistically when trauma haunts.
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Exactly. And it’s hard to turn our brains off at night. If only there was a miracle cure for PTSD and trauma.
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((( love + hugs Nancy ))) 🐻 💜 🌈
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Thank you. Nothing sweeter than a friend who comforts. ❤
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possibly you are (trying to) sleep NOW [time zones] – I’ll send my love and care NOW in case you need it … and even if you don’t
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How kind of you! I fell asleep at 4:30 a.m. today, but slept til ten-thirty! Feeling refreshed. xoxo
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Wishing you pleasant dreams, Nancy ((( hugs ))) 🙂 💜 ❤
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I just got this! Good morning 🙂 ❤
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You do inspire others, Nancy! Love and hugs.
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Thank you, Iris, for your encouragement. I don’t take it lightly. Much appreciated. ❤
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❤ It's my pleasure, Nancy.
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