It makes no earthly sense that I should have so much joy and be able to keep on smiling in the midst of my sufferings and life-threatening health issues, does it? That’s what gives me the confidence to say with pure conviction that “I am a very weak […]
My Blog: A Potpourri of living life, paralyzed and confined to a bed, how I got this way, how I cope, and my perspectives. I am also a CSA, rape, and human trafficking survivor.
Some call me “Wildflower” because … I … survive … the sights that I see when I venture out, the joy of breathing fresh air, of reading and viewing for which I am grateful, yet I prefer my solace – Scorpio hidden in the universe amid twelve grandchildren and the story of humanity, self-deprecating and struggling with self-esteem and what people say; but there are always sea-foam green, teal, lavender, and yellow Brie, dark chocolate, cherries and the Mediterranean: people ask me for my recipes; I travel virtually and survive wildlife and crime to help fellow victims; I am the Witness, I am the Sentinel: welcome to my musings!
Four jobs I’ve had: Cocktail waitress in an infamous 70s & 80s Miami Beach private after-hours club (Sammy’s East Side). The clientele consisted of a sprinkling of celebrities; drug dealers from South America and Cuba; well-known Italian and Jewish gangsters, and dozens of discothèque aficionados. Dance instructor at Arthur […]
I was up last night until 4:00 a.m. working on the final rewrites of my book (I lost all track of time). It will hopefully be the last time I will have to return to those painful memories. My co-writer and editor, Peter Lundell, a professional author and […]
Four-foot-tall sandhill cranes I was out yesterday, fresh air, sunshine, 90° (I love the heat) – nice. Soaking up every moment of my day of freedom, I sought out photo ops. As an avid bird lover, you can imagine my thrill when I ran into these two stately […]
Mother’s Day – one of the loneliest yet happiest day for me because I’ve been blessed with two kids, one step-daughter (my son’s half-sister), and two inherited grown children who have given me twelve wonderful grandchildren, all miles and (may as well be) galaxies away from me, hence […]
I am unable to travel because of my medical situation, so I have not flown since Feb 12, 2005. I remember it clearly because it was my daughter Lori’s birthday and I went to handle my mother’s estate for my siblings. I enjoyed gazing out the plane’s window. […]
I have a new friend now. Eleven-year-old Savannah is a bundle of energetic joy – an adorable, thoughtful moppet with a beaming smile and a personality that captured my heart. Her mom is a friend of mine and brought her over to brighten my day. Savannah and I […]
Oh my gosh! I’m in shock. My best friend, Barbi, who waitressed with me in Sammy’s East Side (Miami Beach) over 40 years ago, just found me on http://www.discomusic.com/clubs-more/12891_0_6_0_C/ ~ a website loaded with classic music and all the clubs from back in the day. I also reconnected […]
My view from our van I breathed fresh air on Wednesday and soaked up some sun on a stunning 85° day. I drove my wheelchair a few blocks, then through the Lowe’s parking lot. (Michael met me there with the van so I could enjoy a little jaunt). […]
Cocooning myself in bed, with the covers over my head while listening to sad, poignant songs relieves my emotional and physical pain. Far better than the self-harming I have done in the past to escape the agonies of my life. Music soothes my soul.