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Nancy

My Blog: A Potpourri of living life, paralyzed and confined to a bed, how I got this way, how I cope, and my perspectives. I am also a CSA, rape, and human trafficking survivor.

Some call me “Wildflower” because … I … survive … the sights that I see when I venture out, the joy of breathing fresh air, of reading and viewing for which I am grateful, yet I prefer my solace – Scorpio hidden in the universe amid twelve grandchildren and the story of humanity, self-deprecating and struggling with self-esteem and what people say; but there are always sea-foam green, teal, lavender, and yellow Brie, dark chocolate, cherries and the Mediterranean: people ask me for my recipes; I travel virtually and survive wildlife and crime to help fellow victims; I am the Witness, I am the Sentinel: welcome to my musings!

Post #9 – Way Too Many Hospital Stays

By Nancy on March 30, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

I’m so bummed. I have to go back into the hospital again because I need antibiotic infusions to kill these infections. If it hadn’t been for the heartless negligence of one nurse I would have been done with the infusions, but she let my IV go bad because […]

Post # 8 – My Heart CrumblesAs March 25th Approaches

By Nancy on March 23, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

March 25 is my younger sister Kathy’s birthday. I scrolled through various personal gift websites. I love sending her sentimental gifts. I was nine years old the day Mom brought Kathy home. She looked just like my Thumbelina doll, wiggling in my mother’s arms. I loved helping […]

Post #7 – Finding Comfort in the Midst of Frustrating Times

By Nancy on March 10, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

I used to be able to dance (my dear cousin Frankie) Up until a few weeks ago, although primarily confined to bed, I was allowed to get up for short periods to wash my hair and shop at Walmart, Publix, or Fresh Market (a real luxury for me). […]

Post # 6 – I’m a Lucky Girl

By Nancy on March 1, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

If not for the constant reminder of those days that smacks me in the face as soon as I open my eyes each morning, I may have found the strength to put this all behind me. Molested at the age of twelve, raped at fifteen, and sold to […]

Post #5 ~ Where Can I Run When the Only Place to Flee Is Inside My Head?

By Nancy on March 1, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Seems like I’m trapped on a never-ending roller coaster ride; never liked them as a kid; terrified me so much, I always threw-up. Yesterday, I received a devastating email that sent me spiraling into a well of depression. How I’d love to escape – go for a dreamy, […]

Post #4 ~ Nightmares, Dreams, & Imagination

By Nancy on February 10, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Where is that lovely place we go when we dream? I don’t know where it is or what I do, but I can walk, and it’s just lovely. Not one night passes by that I don’t dream or have a recurring nightmare. I walk or dance in each one. Sometimes […]

Post #3 ~ Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

By Nancy on February 9, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

One of my BBFs took me Sunday out to do anything I wanted to do. We went to a brand new mall near my home. It is so classy! I haven’t been in a mall since the early 90s. I’m not supposed to be out of bed for […]

Post #2 ~ A Bit of the Back Story

By Nancy on February 1, 2015 • ( 1 Comment )

Me, sis Kathy, a cousin, brothers Bobby and Billy Here is some interesting trivia: There are over 7 billion people on the planet. Of the 10 to 20 million people in the world thought to have HTLV-1, this means between 100,000 and 800,000 people who are affected by […]

Post #1 ~ The Day I Stopped Dancing

By Nancy on January 30, 2015 • ( 1 Comment )

. I was four years old when Mom enrolled into dance classes. I studied ballet, jazz and tap. I had big dreams of dancing in the movies like Shirley Temple. Even though my life took some horrific twists, I still danced, anytime and anywhere I could. During the 70s […]