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Nancy

My Blog: A Potpourri of living life, paralyzed and confined to a bed, how I got this way, how I cope, and my perspectives. I am also a CSA, rape, and human trafficking survivor.

Some call me “Wildflower” because … I … survive … the sights that I see when I venture out, the joy of breathing fresh air, of reading and viewing for which I am grateful, yet I prefer my solace – Scorpio hidden in the universe amid twelve grandchildren and the story of humanity, self-deprecating and struggling with self-esteem and what people say; but there are always sea-foam green, teal, lavender, and yellow Brie, dark chocolate, cherries and the Mediterranean: people ask me for my recipes; I travel virtually and survive wildlife and crime to help fellow victims; I am the Witness, I am the Sentinel: welcome to my musings!

Post #19 – A Brightly Burning Ember

By Nancy on June 6, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

It makes no earthly sense that I should have so much joy and be able to keep on smiling in the midst of my sufferings and life-threatening health issues, does it? That’s what gives me the confidence to say with pure conviction that “I am a very weak […]

Post #18 – A Bit of Trivia about Me ~ in Fours

By Nancy on June 1, 2015 • ( 2 Comments )

Four jobs I’ve had: Cocktail waitress in an infamous 70s & 80s Miami Beach private after-hours club (Sammy’s East Side). The clientele consisted of a sprinkling of celebrities; drug dealers from South America and Cuba; well-known Italian and Jewish gangsters, and dozens of discothèque aficionados. Dance instructor at Arthur […]

Post #17 – Penning My Story – Bleeding on the Pages

By Nancy on May 22, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

I was up last night until 4:00 a.m. working on the final rewrites of my book (I lost all track of time). It will hopefully be the last time I will have to return to those painful memories. My co-writer and editor, Peter Lundell, a professional author and […]

Post #16 – Soaking Up Every Moment of Life

By Nancy on May 14, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Four-foot-tall sandhill cranes I was out yesterday, fresh air, sunshine, 90° (I love the heat) – nice. Soaking up every moment of my day of freedom, I sought out photo ops. As an avid bird lover, you can imagine my thrill when I ran into these two stately […]

Post # 15 – Onism – Frustration of Being Stuck in One Body, That Inhabits One Place at a Time

By Nancy on May 10, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Mother’s Day – one of the loneliest yet happiest day for me because I’ve been blessed with two kids, one step-daughter (my son’s half-sister), and two inherited grown children who have given me twelve wonderful grandchildren, all miles and (may as well be) galaxies away from me, hence […]

Post # 14 – Free Falling

By Nancy on May 7, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

I am unable to travel because of my medical situation, so I have not flown since Feb 12, 2005. I remember it clearly because it was my daughter Lori’s birthday and I went to handle my mother’s estate for my siblings. I enjoyed gazing out the plane’s window. […]

Post # 13 – One Child at a Time – My Young Friend Savannah

By Nancy on May 5, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

I have a new friend now. Eleven-year-old Savannah is a bundle of energetic joy – an adorable, thoughtful moppet with a beaming smile and a personality that captured my heart. Her mom is a friend of mine and brought her over to brighten my day. Savannah and I […]

Post #12 – A Blast from the Past

By Nancy on April 29, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Oh my gosh! I’m in shock. My best friend, Barbi, who waitressed with me in Sammy’s East Side (Miami Beach) over 40 years ago, just found me on http://www.discomusic.com/clubs-more/12891_0_6_0_C/ ~ a website loaded with classic music and all the clubs from back in the day. I also reconnected […]

Post #11 – Breathing Fresh Air – For One Beautiful Day

By Nancy on April 10, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

My view from our van I breathed fresh air on Wednesday and soaked up some sun on a stunning 85° day. I drove my wheelchair a few blocks, then through the Lowe’s parking lot. (Michael met me there with the van so I could enjoy a little jaunt). […]

Post #10 – Sometimes, I Just Need to Escape

By Nancy on April 7, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Cocooning myself in bed, with the covers over my head while listening to sad, poignant songs relieves my emotional and physical pain. Far better than the self-harming I have done in the past to escape the agonies of my life. Music soothes my soul.