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Nancy

My Blog: A Potpourri of living life, paralyzed and confined to a bed, how I got this way, how I cope, and my perspectives. I am also a CSA, rape, and human trafficking survivor.

Some call me “Wildflower” because … I … survive … the sights that I see when I venture out, the joy of breathing fresh air, of reading and viewing for which I am grateful, yet I prefer my solace – Scorpio hidden in the universe amid twelve grandchildren and the story of humanity, self-deprecating and struggling with self-esteem and what people say; but there are always sea-foam green, teal, lavender, and yellow Brie, dark chocolate, cherries and the Mediterranean: people ask me for my recipes; I travel virtually and survive wildlife and crime to help fellow victims; I am the Witness, I am the Sentinel: welcome to my musings!

Post #98 – Finally Free – A Spiritual Poem

By Nancy on May 25, 2016 • ( Leave a comment )

Here is a story of bondage and possession; To none be the glory of this tragic obsession. It’s a private world of highs and lows Where disease is free fare wherever it goes Death is so common you don’t bat an eye Unless it’s your source or […]

Post #97 – Dust, Lilliputians, Cable TV, & Hope

By Nancy on May 21, 2016 • ( 2 Comments )

I am a mere speck of dust in a universe overcrowded and cluttered with unidentifiable particles; Tinier than an atom, lost in the midst of a confused molecule. A Lilliputian. A combination of six elements and a pumping heart that breathes life into a baby whose meaning holds a unique […]

Post #96 – Chapter 5 – Cast Down – A Memoir Excerpt

By Nancy on May 16, 2016 • ( 2 Comments )

John’s mistreatment escalated. One February afternoon, when I was twelve, he drove me to his house. He gripped my wrist, nonchalantly strolled into his mother’s kitchen, and introduced me as his girlfriend. She examined me head to toe, curled her lips, and then busied herself stirring a pot […]

Post #95 – The Immutable Reminders Continual Assaults

By Nancy on May 14, 2016 • ( 8 Comments )

My long absence Thursday, April 21st I woke up feeling great and looking forward to the solace of the upcoming weekend. Week days a group of medical staff attend to my needs which includes my participation. Always a painful process. Also, seemingly never-ending related phone calls overwhelm me. Disability is […]

Post #94 – Eagles – Life’s Prolific Scholars

By Nancy on April 11, 2016 • ( Leave a comment )

The Mighty Eagle Eagles have no fear and never avoid storms. They use the currents to soar to greater heights. Life’s challenges can be overwhelming, frightening, and depressing. The eagle never gives up. Their eyes remained focused on their goal, teaching us to embrace our storms. Spread […]

Post #93 – Blizzards, Transitions, Clever Son – Memoir

By Nancy on April 10, 2016 • ( 2 Comments )

November 1992 – Transitions – two months after a life-changing diagnosis:

Post #245 – Amoré- A Sweetheart’s Sonnet

By Nancy on April 5, 2016 • ( 2 Comments )

I promise I will always be there, when your eyes are shedding tears I will be the one to kiss them away, and remind you that I am near When you feel you can’t get through your darkest and lonely days Hold on to this promise I will […]

Post #91 – An Orphan, Lost Love, Her Favorite Song – Memoir

By Nancy on March 30, 2016 • ( Leave a comment )

Background Snippet: We were Catholic, and confirmation classes had begun the October before Aunt Loretta broke my heart. Oblivious to my ongoing depression, Mom wouldn’t let me quit. It bothered me. Mom said I should be grateful to have the privilege of Confirmation at age twelve. It implied […]

Post #90 – The Taboo of Human Trafficking and . . . A Poem

By Nancy on March 27, 2016 • ( Leave a comment )

Angels whisked her away to her childhood ethereal wildflower fields Ripples of gentle waves dancing upon crystalline waters Reflected her lithe frame waltzing in the midst But then She woke up bleeding and freezing in an empty bathroom balled up in the corner on an icy rocklike floor […]

Post #89 – Good Girl and Devil Boy – An Excerpt from My Memoir

By Nancy on March 19, 2016 • ( 4 Comments )

Captive in the Mirror by Nancy J. Walker with Peter Lundell We were Catholic, and confirmation classes had begun the October just before Aunt Loretta broke my heart. Oblivious to my ongoing depression, Mom wouldn’t let me quit. I was neither interested in the teaching, nor did I […]