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Nancy

My Blog: A Potpourri of living life, paralyzed and confined to a bed, how I got this way, how I cope, and my perspectives. I am also a CSA, rape, and human trafficking survivor.

Some call me “Wildflower” because … I … survive … the sights that I see when I venture out, the joy of breathing fresh air, of reading and viewing for which I am grateful, yet I prefer my solace – Scorpio hidden in the universe amid twelve grandchildren and the story of humanity, self-deprecating and struggling with self-esteem and what people say; but there are always sea-foam green, teal, lavender, and yellow Brie, dark chocolate, cherries and the Mediterranean: people ask me for my recipes; I travel virtually and survive wildlife and crime to help fellow victims; I am the Witness, I am the Sentinel: welcome to my musings!

Post #50 – The Gentle Power of Forgiveness & My Ninth Near-death Occurrence

By Nancy on December 21, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Forgiveness – A new kind of healing has begun within me. I feel it. I’m not as overly sensitive to innocent remarks that spurred triggers. Also, even when blindsided now, nothing shakes my faith. I’m able to trust in the God I cannot see, the one I cannot […]

Post #49 – Counterfeit Love – A Poem I Penned About a Long Ago Lost Love

By Nancy on December 15, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

She loves him so deeply, She hates him as much, She longs to be with him, She craves his sole touch, Her total fulfillment embodied in one. Yet love’s lost in the whirlwind, Swept away, slowly fading, listen oh hearken! Sadly because of a promise rescinded. The lies made […]

Post #48 – Reminiscences – A Poem

By Nancy on December 13, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

The soothing whisper of a gentle wind waltzes through a lonesome palm tree; Peaceful waves dance upon jagged rocks, The cooling water blends with the breeze, and softly kisses my face. Billowy clouds fade into shadows, as amber, crimson, and gold melt into the smoky sky; Shimmering stars peek out from […]

Post #47 – Quiet Moments

By Nancy on December 13, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Can you hear that? I can and I relish in it. The serene silence surrounding me during the wee hours of morning just before the sun rises and kisses my bedroom window. So blissful. My head is clear. I love to ponder during those tranquil, elusive moments. Words flow effortlessly […]

Post #46 – A Street of Shadows – Memoir

By Nancy on December 8, 2015 • ( 2 Comments )

_______________________ Chapter 1 – Desperation and Hope “Like wildflowers; You must allow yourself to grow in all the places people thought you never would.” ~ Ernest Victor Thompson I might rather have been withering away in a dungeon during the Middle Ages. The road to safety might be […]

Post #45 – You Cannot Lose What Was Never Yours

By Nancy on September 29, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Morning Meditation You cannot lose what was never yours no matter how much you want it. It was never meant to be. Accept this . . . and peace will flow in your heart. Your life is . . . a sweet savor to Me when you sacrifice […]

Post #44 – How Olympian POW Louis Zamperini Helped Me Forgive My Abusers

By Nancy on September 28, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Monday September 28, 2015 Photo from the movie Unbroken I watched the movie Unbroken last night. This riveting true story of horrific torture, undeterred inner strength, and true forgiveness left me weak and speechless. It caused me to think of all those who have abused, molested, raped, and […]

Post #43 – Another Painful Sleepless Night Visited By A Beautiful, Mysterious Presence

By Nancy on September 13, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Pain caused me another sleepless night. Nothing new – but the pain abates when I bathe in those peaceful quiet hours. A sweet ambiance permeates my room. Last night, I lost my battle with the pain, so I spilled it out in this poem. Something odd happened after each […]

Post #42 – Unlimited Venues Courtesy of Imagination Airlines

By Nancy on September 8, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

I am a born-adventurer and, although, for the most part, life has not given me this luxury, I try to make moments matter. Outings: Since bed confinement limits my adventures to doctors’ outings, and what I watch on TV and the internet, I have to find creative ways […]

Post #41 – Why I Am So Passionate about the Plight of Human Trafficking – Being A Voice for the Voiceless

By Nancy on September 8, 2015 • ( Leave a comment )

Primarily, being a victim of sex traffickers, I experienced the evil firsthand at the hands of a gang of vicious pimps controlled by organized crime in New York City from the age of eighteen until I was twenty-one. Shane, the leader of the gang, kept me locked up […]